Failure Hurts

It hurts, doesn't it?

It really stings, right? 

It wounds so deep that it don't feel like there will be any healing aye? 

You find yourself staring at the ceiling thinking life is not fair. You know you got no one else to blame but your whole damn lazy self. Tears roll down those cheeks as you see every glimpse of that bright future fading away gradually. You know you are done for. You are history. Your parents will not be very pleased. And everyone around you will look at you like you are a failure.

It sucks aye?

All those long sleepless nights you spent up? 

The precious times you put aside to do last minute study? 

Everything! Just! Sucks! You may already be hurt and broken, but what’s really gonna kill you is what’s gonna come next: The Reality of Life.

What’s gonna really kill you is knowing the fact that you have nowhere to go next year. Knowing the fact that the past 12/13 years you spent in school all amounted to nothing! Knowing that you are a disgrace. An embarrassment. A major let down. A disappointment.

Then once reality sets in, you forget that you are still young. You forget that you still have a long, long way to go. You give up. You let go of the hope, the faith. You find yourself surrounded with walls so you stop trying and just hit the floor. You shut yourself down, mentally. It physically, mentally, socially, emotionally, and spiritually tears you apart into so many pieces that you don’t even recognize yourself no more. It causes so much pain that personality alteration occurs and you become someone else entirely. It makes you weak, lonely, and vulnerable.

And finally, at the end, You will realize that: "Without Pain, There Can Be No Gain".